It's been a while...a really long while. I feel like a seven year old in a candy shop with no idea what colorful explosion of flavor I want to sample first. So, in the likeness of the 'candy shop' theme I've pulled out of thin air, I'm going to start writing as if I was shopping for candy. The first thing I come to is the first thing I will write about. I promise. Candy shop promise. (Yeah that's a real thing now. Special handshake coming soon.)
I'm literally just coming down off a sugar high of orange Sunkist and Dr. Pepper. My burps taste like at least 15 of Dr. Pepper's 23 flavors. At least. Normally I would feel pretty down at this time of night...all the deep thoughts and such...but my positive lifestyle is starting to take over rather effectively. Not much gets me down anymore and I'm really starting to enjoy that. It's not that I blow things off or ignore them, I just accept every situation for what it is rather than try to change it.
These last few months have been a blast. Things are definitely headed in the right direction. (Not that I really know. I'm just assuming. Having confidence about it is a good thing too...I hope. Anywho...) My life has been blessed with a plethora of positive opportunities lately. Hopefully I'll get to share a little more on that topic in a follow-up post sometime soon, but right now I am gonna stick to my candy shop promise.
The first candy you try isn't always the best. Same thing goes for thoughts in your head. Some leave a sour taste in your mouth and others are bittersweet. Recently I've been tasting a lot of that bittersweet. For me, it is a sign of learning. Usually an important life lesson will come out of it. Recently I've had to overcome one of the greatest challenges I've ever faced. On and off for years I crushed on someone. (Candy crushed? Just kidding.) It's always been an intense feeling. Definitely not a crush based on only physical attraction. I've never been around anyone that has made me feel as carefree and alive. As great as that was, I've known in the back of my mind for quite some time that it really needed to end. It just wasn't going to happen between us two. Feelings don't always flow both directions. Real life and imagination don't meet up all the time. I'm amazed it took me so long to sort it all out. Usually I know when to give up, but this piece of candy was everlasting. Unique. Relentless. Tidal waves of emotion at each layer. How do you spit out and discard something that makes you feel so boundless?
It wasn't easy but here I am on the other side, alive and well. Man that was a good piece of candy. I enjoyed the places it took me, and the things it made me feel. I look back with fond memories and also understand that there will not be another quite like it. Moving forward, I hope to find a new flavor. Something just as unique and delicate. A flavor that could last a lifetime and make me feel larger than life. Infinite.
I hope that one day you too can find your piece of candy. Cherish the steps it takes to get there. Don't forget where you've been. Remember the flavors you liked most and use them as a road map through the candy shop. I sincerely believe we all have a perfect match out there somewhere. It's up to us to find it.
With love,
Dev!n
